Today, I felt like someone who is not part of this family.
It's like when they look for me only when they need me. Where are they when I need someone to talk to. Got the chance to talk to my brother & mum these few days, really like it. But, I just can't hide the fact that they tend to ignore me when I talk to them. Although they always say to me that they dote me most, I just dont feel it, I just dont sense they really dote me. I'm not saying that I'm very dependent to them, what I trying to say is that when they say all those things, do they really mean it ? I tried to chat with my mum in dad's car just now. Well, she was listening to me at first, but soon she turned and talked to my dad before I could finish what I wanted to say. Sigh.

After watching Ghost Whisperer just now, I went back to my room and realized that the lights weren't working anymore. I saw my dad's still awake, so I asked him if he could help me to fix it because I don't know how. He stood up, walked to my room and tried turning the lights on. After a few tries, the lights worked and he said, "Still can use mah." But soon the lights started to dim and he still refused to help. I gave up and hoped the lights will continue working until the next morning. So I carried on doing my stuffs. Then, out of sudden, the room blacked out. It was a shocked. Just imagine you're focusing on something, then something just happened suddenly. haha. I've to fix it my own. I was pretty worried when I was fixing it, because I was afraid that I will drop the bulb or whatever important. Cut my leg while climbing the ladder, super clumsy right! hah. But I still fixed the lights lah (: sense of satisfaction.

yeah, I should learn to be more independent from today onwards.